Bengaluru blues...



i’m a true-blue bangalore boy. i spent 25 of my best years in Bangalore. i speak kannada far better than my native tamil. i still call it my hometown. but my childhood memories have been obliterated!

visiting my parents briefly in bangalore this week, the startling truth dawned on me - my childhood had been rudely taken away and turned into an overflowing gutter with scores of people moving mindlessly about in the mayhem. i can no longer have a childhood deja vu and have nothing to be nostalgic about. the flip side of having grown up in bangalore in the 80s and 90s is that its morphed into this despicable new avatar called bengaluru.

when i was 5: our first house in bangalore was at the intersection of infantry road and main guard cross road with a palatial bungalow with a beautiful garden on the corner, and nothing else from there till the shops on commercial street. and i still remember flying my toy plane on brigade parade grounds.
the palatial bungalow has long since given way to an ugly mall called safina plaza, a perennial traffic jam outside (like the rest of bengaluru, right?), the parade grounds are off-limits for the “public”, and it would take you an hour to cross cubbon road to get there anyway.

when i was 10: walking to the bus stop near in 6th block koramangala early in the morning, i remember the thick fog in which i would not be able to see my hand if i stretched it out in front of me. in the evenings, we would ride like daredevils on our bicycles all the way to the marsh separating koramangala from the airport.
the same stretch is still enveloped by fog – just a different kind that’s rich in cardon-dioxide. the marsh is now a maze of glass-fronted complexes of miscellaneous shops and offices (how the hell did they build them on a marsh?). there’s a string of “hip” restaurants, bars and such-like all over with misguided youngsters in them feeling like they’re part of the “new generation X”.

when i was 15: at this time, we were staying in a piece of paradise called convent road – in the heart of town, walking distance from the “commercial hub”, and my school (Bishop Cottons on St. Marks road), surrounded by woods on several private properties and school grounds all around. from my bedroom window i could see fascinating eagles, kites, parrots and miriad exotic creatures go about their business.
no more woods, only more glass-fronted corporate offices. no more birds, unless you count the scavenging crows.

when i was 20: we moved to a new, desolate “layout” intriguingly called btm. (the best interpretation of that name was that it lay between the villages of bannerghatta, thavarekere and madivala). disconnected from civilization as we knew it, with its own private lake, it took us back to the koramangala-like environment that we thought had gone forever.
enter the ring road, exit peace and quiet. the same story all over again, i’m too depressed to go into the details of this one except that my old pal ravi and his “bakery” selling bananas, chai, cigarettes, veg. puffs, “dilpasand”, groceries and anything else you may have ever needed, has warped into a swanky atm.

when i was 25: btm part II – we moved even further away, down bannerghatta road to a group of 3 towering buildings that was L&T south city in the back of beyond. veritably on the edge of town, the only sight to see was lightning striking over hills on the horizon.
south city now has 15 20-floor towers, houses 1200+ families that own 2000+ cars. i’ll leave the rest to your imagination.

this story doesn’t end where i make my exit in 2006. in fact, namma bengaluru seems to be hurtling determinedly forward on a horrifying suicide mission. i can only hope i don’t live long enough to witness the end. a laid back, lovely city once called the “garden city” is now proud to has institutionalized the term “bangalored”. yes, these are incredible achievements…and i’ve ridden the wave of relentless economic pursuit, i’m rather ashamed to admit.

that is bengaluru for you…and there's no one to blame but me – the quintessential bangalore boy.

is this my soul?


is this my soul? no, dont think so...

can i write about how i met my wife? what we spoke about on our first "date"? my feelings and emotions when we decided to "go for it"? not likely - a man can change, but this me doesn't think i can write about stuff like that.

why? i speak about this stuff to my friends...so why not on blog? my only answer is that the human mind is weird...

you, my revered reader (assuming someone actually reads this), will know very well....

for me, this is something i do when i'm bored. thats why some of this stuff is "piecemeal" - you know what they say about an idle mind...not that its the devil's workshop but the more common sense fact that its mostly "stream of consciousness"...

i write about my friend Kaspar, CA days, then someone tags me, and then, this nonsense...no wonder i dont have a fan following!!!

shit! i been "tagged"

shit! i been "tagged"...what m i sposed to do????
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ok, checked it out on wikipedia...apparently, im sposed to expose 8 random facts/ habits 'bout mself - wy wud ny one wan to no stuff lik dat? this e-world has gone mad, or was it always like this? doesn't matter, a man's gotta do what he's gotta do..

8 - Stevie King maniac - i've read "The Dark Tower" books (all the 4000+ pages) at least 5 times
7 - rock, hard rock, progressive rock, symphonic rock, sympho-porgressive rock, metal, heavy metal, progressive metal, symphonic metal...i could go on but i think you get the picture?
6 - closet introvert - if you meet me, you'll never guess how quiet i am when i'm alone
5 - formula 1 freak - thats the only time of the week that i'm obsessed with the television, vent my anger on the electricity suppliers, cable operators, the rain gods, the bloody government, the estate agent who showed us this house and even my wife if something goes wrong and interrupts my viewing
4 - sucker for dimples - just ask my wife ;)
3 - naive and arrogant - a heady mix
2 - travelaholic - the thrill of a new country or a place you've never been or have been before and love, is a terrific adrenaline rush
1 - nature buff - i'd choose to sit and watch the mist spar with the mountains, or the waves fight the shore all day than most other things;

i'm a stranger in a strange e-land,
all alone wihout a friend to hold my hand,
nor to tag, but thats the law of the sand
(sorry, couldn't think of anything else that rhymes!)
so, this is the end, my friend,
see you soon on the other side of the moon.

Days of Thunder (and lightning, tornados, cyclones)

since i've started this blog thingy rather late in life, i'm gonna have to re-create my past. and the first phase of my life that i want to "re-create"(certainly not re-live) are my CA days (the thunder, lightning etc. etc....)

i'm a survivor. i survived all that the ICAI (the institute that runs the "show"), my teachers, instructors, examiners, paper-setters, fee-collectors and fellow "students" threw at me.... i survived!!

most parts are stowed away in some obscure corner of my memory and that place to too dark and dangerous to enter...but i must because some of it was

good:
- i've learnt so much about how to face adversity
- some (most? all?) of my best friends are from my CA days
- i've got more work experience than most of my (non-CA) peers since i started working full-time at 18
- i've learnt how to work 16-17 hours a day - yes, it is a good thing (to learn how to)
- its added the letters to my name that really matter (ACA)

bad:
- i had to survive it!
- i missed all of most of my college years since i started working full-time at 18!
- i had to work 16-17 hours a day - no, its not a good thing (to actually have to do)

ugly:
- 8 years! i started in earnest almost 4 years later than i should have

now, i'm just another simpleton - a struggling, working class tambram (more on that last word later...) struggling to make ends meet. having dedication, loyalty, and blood, sweat and tears as your only real competencies can be tough but i seem to have got away with it so far!

the show must go on...

The Big Bang Theory


got your attention with the title?

gotcha! this blog has nothing to do with astronomy or science. on the contrary, "the big bang" refers to my entry into the world of "nothing's private any more"... (what hype?)!

the seeds for these "echoes" were sown on the day of the loss of a family member - my German Shepherd brother Kaspar. Kaspar was my buddy through the toughest years of my life when i was struggling through my CA days (years?) and he's surely made his mark on my world (quite a few of them on my hands!).

Kappy, if you are in another life and can read (english), then this one's for you, buddy!